2017 has got to be the most challenging year for me so far. To start off, I left my first job in the hopes that the next one will be better but it wasn’t. In fact, it was more stressful and toxic than the first one and knowing that I made the wrong decision just because I was so eager to leave my first job—that broke me. It was hard to accept, I didn’t know where to go from there and what else to do, I lasted there for about four months. I just couldn’t handle the stress anymore, and I’ve never felt more tired.
After leaving my second job, I was blessed with finding a new one in the company where I interned. It brought back so many memories, but it all felt great knowing that I wouldn’t have a hard time adjusting with some of the people in the office. But after training, I was challenged again. This time it is because I feel like my skills doesn’t fit the job. My friends encouraged me that I will eventually get used to it, and I did. But still, there are moments when I feel like I don’t really know and understand what I’m doing. I’m still here though, learning as though I’m a student again. I hope I can survive.
The whole year was indeed full of challenges, but one thing is for sure, I learned a lot. I realized so many things about myself, who my real friends are, and more importantly, I learned so many things about life and adulthood. It’s not easy and it never will be, but I got to face each day with my head held up high because there are people who have it harder than me, people who are suffering and fighting for their lives, so I can’t just give up.
In 2018, I have no resolutions, no wishes, and no expectations. I decided to just go with the flow and whatever happens, happens. The universe may be tough, but it also gives us hope. So here’s to new challenges, lessons, and cheers to better days ahead. 💖