About LENN

I write about my personal thoughts, experiences, and bookish fixations.

The Dusty Diary #1

When I first started blogging, I used to write about my daily encounters with different things. My Tumblr blog used to be a diary of sorts and since this pandemic has been really affecting my mental health, I felt that I needed to write these kind of stuff again because writing my feelings down is therapeutic for me. I needed to take extra steps that I think will help me get through this, so here I am:

It has been nearly three months since the lockdown was imposed in my country, and despite forcing myself to stay positive amidst all this ⁠— well, this pandemic and quarantine really did take a toll on my mental health.

During the first couple of weeks, I was able to stay sane by focusing on work, reading books, and sometimes I even tried to learn new things (e.g., cooking and making dessert). I thought I had my anxiety under control, but as the days go by and as the quarantine period in my side of the world was extended and extended and extended, I found myself more and more anxious. I tried distracting myself by spending way too much time on online shops which resulted in, of course, me buying so many things like books and skincare products. For a while, I was really happy ⁠— receiving a package sort of  gives you that giddy feeling like receiving a gift on your birthday or on Christmas. It worked for a while, I felt happy whenever a package is delivered on our front door and I liked the thrill of opening it and, of course, using the products.

Again, I thought I had it under control, but last week, I’ve been having a hard time sleeping. I am tired and sleepy, but every time I try to close my eyes, my mind goes into a spiral of thoughts that I just can’t shake. I am overthinking again, and it seemed a lot worse than before this pandemic started. I’ve been thinking about the pandemic, the lockdown, my future, my stress from work and my deadlines ⁠— there were so many things running through my mind all at once that it felt like my head was going to crack open. I even came to a point where I cried and begged my mind to just stop thinking and just let me rest ⁠— I was so freaking restless.

Right now, I bought an over-the-counter medicine for some dosage of melatonin to help me sleep at night and I’ve also been drinking tea or milk before going to bed. I’ve been taking the meds for two days now, and so far, it’s helping me pretty well with my sleep though I’m still having occasional breakdowns during the day. I hope I get to cope up with all that is happening because having a mental breakdown at this time is so much harder.

I’ve also been constantly talking with my boyfriend and some of my friends about it, and most of them keep on telling me to just don’t overthink things as I do not have control over everything. I agree, I totally freaking agree, but the thing is, I just can’t force my mind to just stop thinking about everything. As I’ve mentioned, I even came to a point where I begged my mind to just stop ⁠— the noise in my head just don’t know how to stop. It sounds crazy, but it feels that way and I’ve been having intense headaches because of it. It’s so hard to deal with my anxiety, stress, and panic attacks when everything around me is stressing the hell out of me.

I hope that these baby steps like taking in dosages of melatonin, drinking tea/milk, and writing my heart out helps a bit with what I’m currently feeling because I don’t know what else to do.

Eureka! Moment #5: Skin Potions

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Hey! Welcome to another one of my Eureka! Moments blog posts. This month, I’m writing about some of Skin Potions Philippines’ products that I just started using a few days ago. It was recommended to me by a friend, so I did a couple of research with regard to the ingredients they use in their products, their background, and then I checked their Instagram account.

I just couldn’t help but spend a lot of time browsing through their Instagram feed because their products are so cute and girly! If you know me personally, I am all for cute stuff (it’s actually becoming a problem sometimes haha). Anyway, I was really undecided about what to order because I wanted to try everything! Like their micellar water and facial wash, but I’m already using other brands for those.

So what I did buy for myself from their online shop are these:

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Don’t they have the cutest packaging? My kawaii heart is so pleased. Anyway, the Glass Skin moisturizing anti-pimple cream smells so good, I’m addicted! When I woke up the morning after my first night of using the products, I took a selfie because I really felt like my skin is softer and more moisturized than ever.

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I’m so happy about the feel of my face and I’m excited to see the results after consuming these products! I mix the oil and Glass Skin Cream together because the oil’s scent is so strong. And voila, there’s the results in just the first use!

I’ve also ordered their other products, like their Potion Balm, Tomato Serum, and Watermelon Shocker soap. I also wanted to try their Sorcerer’s Cream for my underarms but they’re still out of stock.

I was also able to recommend it to my mom and cousins! My mom’s currently using their Aloe Vera Skin Saver Gel and Tomato Serum (that’s why I ordered the serum because I saw her using it and it also smelled great!) while my cousins are using their Micellar Water.

You guys should check them out at skinpotionsph.com! They have the cutest yet affordable and effective products when it comes to pampering your skin. They also sell makeup, so for all the makeup junkies out there, this one’s also for you.

Book Review: Why We Broke Up by Daniel Handler

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Title: Why We Broke Up

Author: Daniel Handler

Art: Maira Kalman

Date Published: December 27, 2011

Number of Pages: 354

Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers

Genre: Young Adult, Contemporary, Romance

Synopsis:

I’m telling you why we broke up, Ed. I’m writing it in this letter, the whole truth of why it happened.

Min Green and Ed Slaterton are breaking up, so Min is writing Ed a letter and giving him a box. Inside the box is why they broke up. Two bottle caps, a movie ticket, a folded note, a box of matches, a protractor, books, a toy truck, a pair of ugly earrings, a comb from a motel room, and every other item collected over the course of a giddy, intimate, heartbreaking relationship. Item after item is illustrated and accounted for, and then the box, like a girlfriend, will be dumped.

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Book Mail: Quarantine Edition

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Nine weeks into quarantine and I finally made my first online purchase and, yes, they are books and I am so happy! So it went like this, I was browsing through my Facebook feed one weekend which mainly consist of the usual memes, some of my friends’ rants or food they had for lunch, and whatnot when I stumbled upon this post from one of the bookish groups that I am a member of. This person, who is also a member of the group, was decluttering her shelves and decided to sell some of her books. When I saw the titles of the books she were selling, I immediately sent her a message to reserve the books under my name. It was actually an easy transaction because she made a Shopee link for the specific titles that I will be buying and also agreed for me to pay via COD (Cash On Delivery).

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Book Review: The Storied Life of A.J. Fikry by Gabrielle Zevin

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Title: The Storied Life of A.J. Fikry

Author: Gabrielle Zevin

Date Published: April 1, 2014

Number of Pages: 319

Publisher: Abacus

Genre: Adult Contemporary

Synopsis:

As surprising as it is moving, The Storied Life of A. J. Fikry is an unforgettable tale of transformation and second chances, an irresistible affirmation of why we read, and why we love.

We are not quite novels.

We are not quite short stories.

In the end, we are collected works.

A. J. Fikry’s life is not at all what he expected it to be. His wife has died; his bookstore is experiencing the worst sales in its history; and now his prized possession, a rare collection of Poe poems, has been stolen. Slowly but surely, he is isolating himself from all the people of Alice Island—from Chief Lambiase, the well-intentioned police officer who’s always felt kindly toward him; from Ismay, his sister-in-law, who is hell-bent on saving A.J. from his dreary self; from Amelia, the lovely and idealistic (if eccentric) Knightley Press sales rep who persists in taking the ferry to Alice Island, refusing to be deterred by A.J.’s bad attitude. Even the books in his store have stopped holding pleasure for him. These days, he can only see them as a sign of a world that is changing too rapidly.

And then a mysterious package appears at the bookstore. It’s a small package, though large in weight—an unexpected arrival that gives A.J. the opportunity to make his life over, the ability to see everything anew. It doesn’t take long for the locals to notice the change overcoming A.J., for the determined sales rep Amelia to see her curmudgeonly client in a new light, for the wisdom of all those books to become again the lifeblood of A.J.’s world. Or for everything to twist again into a version of his life that he didn’t see coming.

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