Eureka! Moment #2: Fujifilm X-A3

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I’ve been taking photos of random things since 2010 — not that I’m an expert or a pro, though, because I’m no photographer, but I do like the idea of capturing a moment. For me, photo are forever — they capture moments, places, and events that you will never experience or see ever again or can never go back to.

So I consider cameras as one of the most beautiful gadgets ever invented; they are the ultimate collectior. We assimilate everything we see, so the idea of being able to capture the things that you love in a single photo and being able to keep it seems so magical.

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I never really got my own camera as I never really intended nor planned on leveling up on my “photography skills” (if that’s what everyone likes to call it) since I don’t really have much skills in editing and all that shiz.

So most of my Instagram posts until 2019 are mostly taken using my phone, until last December, my boyfriend suggested that I buy my own camera for the following reasons: 1.) So that I can learn how to use a real camera 2.) Have the quality of my photos more enhanced 3.) So that I can take my Instagram game and blogging game to the next level.

He already had a model in mind — it’s part of the Fujifilm X series and it’s very budget-friendly given that it’s really cheaper compared to others that have the same specs.

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So far, I’m still learning how to take that IG-worthy shot. And though I had to give up my Instax Mini 9 for this, I’m so happy I finally have my own real camera.

My Skin Care Routine

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When I first met most of my friends from college, and from work, the one question that almost everyone of them asked was: “What do you put on your face?” or “How do you take care of your skin?”

Before, I only use toner at the end of each day because I always thought that why do I need to put a lot of those products on my face when my skin’s really not acne-prone, anyway? That’s where I’m wrong. Some two or three years ago, I came to the realization that despite not having pimples, I have a mildly dry skin. So I started researching about what products to use, which brand works, etc. Continue reading

Those Magical Seconds

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“If happiness could be broken down into units of time, it would be those magical seconds when you said: ‘I don’t want to miss a lifetime with you, Lenn. I love you.'” 

I choose you, too, and I’m truly grateful that we both made the same decision. I am so happy that I wouldn’t have to spend every waking hour of my life wondering what it would feel like being in your arms. I love you for always. ♥

 

2020, Here I Come

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Like many other years that have passed, 2019 has been full of challenges, laughter, tears, surprises, and so much more. So what truly made it different from all the past years?

For me it goes like: This year was full of firsts. It’s been a year of surprises and going-aways and basically trying my best to live my life as best as possible.

I was able to visit a couple of beaches than usual this year, I got to go to a far away province, and I also got to go out of the country. It was fun and exciting and stressful all at the same time, but one thing’s for sure, it was worth it.

A couple of challenging phases that I had to go through was having to deal with my stress and anxiety issues. It’s not easy, especially when there’s no one to tell it to. Having to deal with your own mind is one of the most difficult struggles that I had to face.

To be perfectly honest, 2019 has been the most challenging year for my mental health, but I am proud to say that I am still here, though, and I survived it.

Setting all the struggles and challenges and bumps along the way, 2019 was still a good year. It was composed of creating so much memories with the person I treasure the most.

In 2020, may each of us learn to love ourselves a little bit harder and take care of our own well-being. May all of us learn to value what self-love and self-care really means, because sometimes, we forget the most important person that we should be taking care of: ourselves.

I would just like to that the person who stayed with me throughout all the madness in my head: My boyfriend. Thank you for always trying to understand and for doing your best to keep me sane despite everything. Thank you for your efforts, for fighting, and for taking care of me. You are the only thing I am most grateful for in this lifetime. I love you.

Now, let me end this post with a little throwback from all the adventures I had this year:

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I am very much thankful for all these wonderful things despite the stress. Happy New Year, everyone! ❤

What are you most afraid of?

There is another me in a different dimension where I do not feel like this. Another dimension where my heart fits perfectly into my chest and I am not afraid of the things that make me feel alive.

It sucks that I live in this world where everything feels like it’s going to tear me apart. It’s like I’m always waiting for something to snap — for the sky to fall, for the ground to break, for myself to keep falling into an infinite abyss — always waiting for something to crash.

Love taught me that at one point in time, everyone I’ve ever loved had taken a part of me and nothing will ever be left for myself but the bruises, scars, and burns. Continue reading